Category Archives: prayer

Rooting Compassion

When I was little, but big enough to know that owning a pony of my own was out of the question, I was promised a pet when we got a bigger place. The house was on the market, in the … Continue reading

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Being more unicorn

Online dating is cruel. At one level, there are those who treat the whole affair like some kind of joke. Gosh, look at him. How stupid is he to think anyone would go out with that?  Cue messages ostensibly inviting him out … Continue reading

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Just as I am

Thirteen years ago today, I was baptised. As the minister preached of times of loneliness to come, alongside the joys, I was sinking into my first fully fledged episode of depression. Having a relationship with a personal God had meant … Continue reading

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Sign and Promise

CW: #suicideideation New years are times I find scary. As we, as a house, lit sky lanterns and let them go into the skies, to see in the new year, I was trembling. With cold, for sure, but also fear. … Continue reading

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Illusions of Perspective

I am clinging to academia by the case of a very jaded laptop battery. A laptop that moves from institution to institution, coffee shop to coffee shop, awaiting students and marking and upfront teaching, whilst trying to ignore the pile … Continue reading

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Unravelling

This week  marks the halfway point of my time in the Therapeutic Community. Over the first three months, I made tangible changes; moved house, reduced working hours, withdrew myself from my parents’ “let’s divorce each other as inhumanely as possible” … Continue reading

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Glimmer

What do you want me to do for you? Luke, 18 v 41 I don’t know. It’s a familiar defence. One that I go to often in TC, when I’m too terrified to think of what the honest answer is, … Continue reading

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