Tag Archives: emotionally unstable personality disorder

Never enough

My brother was quite a precocious child. At his birth, he gave me a nurse’s dressing up outfit. As you can see below, I was a very dutiful nurse. I tended each of my patients with care, a song (‘Miss … Continue reading

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Just as I am

Thirteen years ago today, I was baptised. As the minister preached of times of loneliness to come, alongside the joys, I was sinking into my first fully fledged episode of depression. Having a relationship with a personal God had meant … Continue reading

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Eye of the Storm

All the time I have been writing this blog, I have been on anti-depressants. (Although I should note that there was a period a few years ago, when I was with my ex-partner, and I tried to taper them. I … Continue reading

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Sign and Promise

CW: #suicideideation New years are times I find scary. As we, as a house, lit sky lanterns and let them go into the skies, to see in the new year, I was trembling. With cold, for sure, but also fear. … Continue reading

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The Princess and the Pea

The first time I can remember ‘acting’ was at my sixth birthday party. A friend, knowing how much I loved reading, gave me a copy of the Ladybird title ‘The Princess and the Pea’. I already had a copy. But, … Continue reading

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Illusions of Perspective

I am clinging to academia by the case of a very jaded laptop battery. A laptop that moves from institution to institution, coffee shop to coffee shop, awaiting students and marking and upfront teaching, whilst trying to ignore the pile … Continue reading

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Glimmer

What do you want me to do for you? Luke, 18 v 41 I don’t know. It’s a familiar defence. One that I go to often in TC, when I’m too terrified to think of what the honest answer is, … Continue reading

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