Category Archives: character

Glimmer

What do you want me to do for you? Luke, 18 v 41 I don’t know. It’s a familiar defence. One that I go to often in TC, when I’m too terrified to think of what the honest answer is, … Continue reading

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Through the looking glass

Each to each a looking glass, reflects the other that doth pass. George Herbert Mead (1903) My sense of myself depends on how I think you see me. When you stare in the street, it makes me feel ugly, unacceptable. … Continue reading

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All in a name

My mother is married. Remarried. Divorced. Is she still divorced, now that she is married? I might as well ask how many wives Henry VIII actually had. It’s all semantics. But – semantics still feel like they matter. A rows … Continue reading

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Silk inside a chestnut shell

  Autumn days, when the grass is jewelled And the silk inside a chestnut shell Jet planes meeting in the air to be refuelled All these things I love so well Estelle White The silk inside a chestnut shell. The … Continue reading

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Sand, and sea, and symmetry

I am trying to practise being more spontaneous. So, when my housemate said there was a union trip to the seaside, and I wasn’t already doing anything else, I thought, why not. It is a truth universally acknowledged that swimming … Continue reading

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Garden of Trust

  You’d think that after 5 years, leaving Taizé would get easier. It doesn’t. It gets harder. The notes of a friend who, like me, journeyed to Taizé for the fifth time this year, returning to the UK a week … Continue reading

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Desolate

Since leaving T.C. last  week, I have been enveloped by a shroud of unrelenting, uninvited loneliness. Sadness. Alone-ness. It’s not because I’ve not had company. There has been tea and games, and sunshine and picnic and barbecue. There was fun … Continue reading

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