Category Archives: character

Am I OK?

Proprioception is one of the senses you probably didn’t learn about at school. The ability, without looking or touching, to know the whereabouts in space of different parts of your body. My ‘proprioception is a wee bit skewed but generally … Continue reading

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Loving constant

Object constancy is one principle of psychodynamic developmental psychology. The basic idea is that as infants grow older, they come to realise, and can remember, that their caregiver loves them (is a constant in their lives) even when that caregiver … Continue reading

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Ridiskulus

Over the time I have spent in the TC, my temper has calmed some. It is not the case that my emotional responses have lessened in intensity: intensity of emotional experience is part of who I am. Not being able … Continue reading

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Square One

Spin the clock back a few years. I am spending a morning in Fenwick’s (erstwhile, delightful department store in West London) with my mother. We go to their cafe. I have orange juice. I want orange juice in a carton. … Continue reading

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Inside out

The first time I went away from home, I was eleven. Eleven years-old is far too old to go away overnight for the first time. I wasn’t just going away overnight. I was going away for four nights, over a … Continue reading

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Acknowledgement

Well, that’s annoying, isn’t it? I understand that. My brother, on the ‘phone to his partner this weekend. It was her who was running late; him unafraid to express how that made him feel; her validating that. Validation is something … Continue reading

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Being more unicorn

Online dating is cruel. At one level, there are those who treat the whole affair like some kind of joke. Gosh, look at him. How stupid is he to think anyone would go out with that?  Cue messages ostensibly inviting him out … Continue reading

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Toeing the line

In other words, putting one foot in front of the other, feet flat, along  a taut skipping rope, or a line in the pavement (I ain’t afraid of no bears). Me, aged seven or eight years, developing balance –  poise – … Continue reading

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Schrodinger’s Root

My mother visited my primary school classroom umpteen times about the bullying. Each evening, I would give her an account of events. They became expected; normalized. It was the way that other children behaved around me. My mother visiting the … Continue reading

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Whatever you want

Which film would you like to see at the cinema? X or Y? I can’t choose. I don’t mind, really,  I don’t.   As a template, the above would work pretty well for many of my conversations with friends or … Continue reading

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