Category Archives: character

Tumbling

Last Sunday night, I fall. I fall into a mire of suicide ideation and self-loathing. I have just been to visit my mother. Things appeared normal. If family life was normal, then I am bad, bad, bad, for seeking, let … Continue reading

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Face to face

4th December, 1984 [Physio.] felt she should be able to use her right hand more than she does. To be more firm with her. 13th December, 1984 ….tried to get her to do something with her right hand – useless! … Continue reading

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Eye of the Tiger

I’ve run through email, cleared my inbox, and scheduled the Department’s core social media output for the week. I met last week’s research goal, and feel ready to tackle the one set up for the week ahead. I feel calm. And then … Continue reading

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Trumpet Blowing

I’ve just gotten back from an academic conference. It was one that I used to go to often as a student; but stopped as my work became more suited to other audiences. Having not been to it for a few … Continue reading

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Taize: The Desert Flower

When desertions, doubts, discouragements and the silences of God seem to cover everything, will you discern the desert flower? Frere Roger, And Your Deserts Shall  Flower, 1982 I am returned again from a week Taize, changed, refreshed, restored vis-a-vis the person who … Continue reading

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In the fast lane

I walk a pace: I can make it from Magdalen Street East to Queen’s Lane in under three minutes to get the coach to London in the mornings. On London days, I clear 10 000 steps, no problem. I am … Continue reading

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