Category Archives: reasoning

Reeling

I had just settled in the knowledge that my ex-housemate is in prison. In prison, for a crime that, this time last year, as we adopted a cat, I could not have imagined him committing. Courts and police raids and … Continue reading

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Jumble

The tolerance and kindness you have shown me has been vastly more than I could possibly have expected or hoped for. It could end there. The last substantive sentence of the message my ex-partner, ex-housemate, left with his father for … Continue reading

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Desolate

Since leaving T.C. last  week, I have been enveloped by a shroud of unrelenting, uninvited loneliness. Sadness. Alone-ness. It’s not because I’ve not had company. There has been tea and games, and sunshine and picnic and barbecue. There was fun … Continue reading

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Erasure

I am nine years old. S — is standing in front of me, with J— and B— beside her. J—‘s family don’t want to buy a copy of the school class photo’. That’s my fault, because it’s not a class … Continue reading

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Extreme data: Research at the cutting edge

Work is hard. Thinking is hard because my mind doesn’t stay where I put it. I get sidetracked in anger at the stigma carried in the way psychologists write and talk about mental health. Title: Borderline mothers. Mothers at the periphery of two … Continue reading

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Tumbling

Last Sunday night, I fall. I fall into a mire of suicide ideation and self-loathing. I have just been to visit my mother. Things appeared normal. If family life was normal, then I am bad, bad, bad, for seeking, let … Continue reading

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Personality Disorder and ICD-11: A Patient’s Reflection

This post is something of a departure from my normal, experience-based posts. Here, I want to review the new diagnostic criteria for personality disorder, as proposed by Tyrer, Reed and Crawford (2015) . The categories trouble me, for several reasons, … Continue reading

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