Category Archives: disability

Silver and sunlight

Maybe I am still in a state of post-Taizé calm. Taizé was everything I love about Taizé this year. Maybe the theme, “eat your bread with joy” seeped in more deeply than I imagined it had. For the first time, … Continue reading

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Inside out

The first time I went away from home, I was eleven. Eleven years-old is far too old to go away overnight for the first time. I wasn’t just going away overnight. I was going away for four nights, over a … Continue reading

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Toeing the line

In other words, putting one foot in front of the other, feet flat, along  a taut skipping rope, or a line in the pavement (I ain’t afraid of no bears). Me, aged seven or eight years, developing balance –  poise – … Continue reading

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Schrodinger’s Root

My mother visited my primary school classroom umpteen times about the bullying. Each evening, I would give her an account of events. They became expected; normalized. It was the way that other children behaved around me. My mother visiting the … Continue reading

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Never enough

My brother was quite a precocious child. At his birth, he gave me a nurse’s dressing up outfit. As you can see below, I was a very dutiful nurse. I tended each of my patients with care, a song (‘Miss … Continue reading

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Just as I am

Thirteen years ago today, I was baptised. As the minister preached of times of loneliness to come, alongside the joys, I was sinking into my first fully fledged episode of depression. Having a relationship with a personal God had meant … Continue reading

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Unravelling

This week  marks the halfway point of my time in the Therapeutic Community. Over the first three months, I made tangible changes; moved house, reduced working hours, withdrew myself from my parents’ “let’s divorce each other as inhumanely as possible” … Continue reading

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