Category Archives: disability

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Another week down. One more week to go before case conference. As before, this week was one of anxiety and unabating fear. I’m unable to sleep restfully. I am constantly drained and tired. Caffeine now has little effect. I do … Continue reading

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Second Opinion

I have just gotten back from the hospital. Six years after it was first suggested, off-label, and with a number of potentially incapacitating side effects (not for me then), I have had a series of botulinum toxin injections, to paralyse … Continue reading

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Pendulum

And, how does that make you feel? Inside my head, my eyebrows raise, incredulously. Outside my head, I know the costs of giving a satirical answer. The person asking the question met me for the first time, five minutes ago. … Continue reading

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Taize: The Desert Flower

When desertions, doubts, discouragements and the silences of God seem to cover everything, will you discern the desert flower? Frere Roger, And Your Deserts Shall  Flower, 1982 I am returned again from a week Taize, changed, refreshed, restored vis-a-vis the person who … Continue reading

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Breath of Light

I find it hard to calm down, to relax. To chill out. If there’s work to do, I find it nigh impossible to forget that it is there, and do anything else, until it is finished. The problem with this … Continue reading

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Hinds’ Feet

Jehovah, the Lord, is my strength, and he maketh my feet like hinds’ feet, and will make me to walk upon mine high places. Habbakuk, 3 v 19 (ESV) Balance is not a strong point. Along with proprioception, it is … Continue reading

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Ashamed to God

Above my desk at work is a copy  of Rembrandt’s ‘The Prodigal Son’. It is now set alongside several Taize postcards, Bible verse postcards, icons. In a Department boasting a Chair for one of the greatest skeptic psychologists, of international … Continue reading

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