Category Archives: children

F is for Fail

I can’t do this. Clearly. I’ve failed again this week to secure employment. The reason given for why – because I haven’t done enough publishing. But that’s because I have sent my writing to the interviewer and badgered and badgered … Continue reading

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Tumbling

Last Sunday night, I fall. I fall into a mire of suicide ideation and self-loathing. I have just been to visit my mother. Things appeared normal. If family life was normal, then I am bad, bad, bad, for seeking, let … Continue reading

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Frenzied Chasm

Rewind 15 years. I am 18, and about to sit my final school exams. Each weekday morning, I wake at 5am. I am working late, and not sleeping well. I have panic attacks in anticipation of the post arriving; university … Continue reading

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New Leaves

So, a new term begins. With it, the hills of Scotland are replaced with mountains of essay marking; the gentle sunsets with sharp early morning awakenings, the larks singing into the darkness before the dawn. The darkness before the dawn. … Continue reading

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Beneath the smile

S —- is leading the charge again with the media this week. Well done, S —-! I cringe. Following the media interest last week, ‘phone calls and email, the Times Education Supplement and BBC News sites published pieces on my … Continue reading

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The Dare Game

I’m not able to go swimming as often as I could. The commute eats the time away that I would otherwise have spent in the water. It makes the times in the week that I can go more precious, and … Continue reading

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Changeless

It is barely lunchtime, and I am pathetically tired. It’s not because I didn’t sleep last night – I nearly managed eight hours’.  I would have done, had it not taken me so long to fall asleep. I got up … Continue reading

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