Category Archives: children

Small Reflection

The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other’s welcome… Love after Love by Derek Walcott [continued at link] God has a … Continue reading

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Inside out

The first time I went away from home, I was eleven. Eleven years-old is far too old to go away overnight for the first time. I wasn’t just going away overnight. I was going away for four nights, over a … Continue reading

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Voices around my head

The voice in my head is unkind. When it is not telling me I would be better dead; that I deserve to die; it is running a live commentary on how rubbish I am. I shake my head violently in … Continue reading

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Playing pretend

I have spent large swathes of the past week in tears. Starting with tears of exhaustion following another stupidly early morning, and failed job interview. Tears on the bus that managed to perturb the five year-old child sat in front … Continue reading

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Sand, and sea, and symmetry

I am trying to practise being more spontaneous. So, when my housemate said there was a union trip to the seaside, and I wasn’t already doing anything else, I thought, why not. It is a truth universally acknowledged that swimming … Continue reading

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Garden of Trust

  You’d think that after 5 years, leaving Taizé would get easier. It doesn’t. It gets harder. The notes of a friend who, like me, journeyed to Taizé for the fifth time this year, returning to the UK a week … Continue reading

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Fury, me.

Ten yo: Mummy, why is that lady walking like that? Mummy: She’s drunk. Stupid spastic Oi! Are you drunk? Spastic Spastic! SPASTIC! The voices encircle me. Up the road, on the road that I live on, in town, on my … Continue reading

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