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Schrodinger’s Root

My mother visited my primary school classroom umpteen times about the bullying. Each evening, I would give her an account of events. They became expected; normalized. It was the way that other children behaved around me. My mother visiting the … Continue reading

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I am nine years old. S — is standing in front of me, with J— and B— beside her. J—‘s family don’t want to buy a copy of the school class photo’. That’s my fault, because it’s not a class … Continue reading

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Beneath the smile

S —- is leading the charge again with the media this week. Well done, S —-! I cringe. Following the media interest last week, ‘phone calls and email, the Times Education Supplement and BBC News sites published pieces on my … Continue reading

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Heart of Stone

Let the stone become whatever it is that is your biggest stumbling block. And lay it down somewhere on your journey, to God’s care. I want to throw it. Full force, straight ahead of me. Not because I am without … Continue reading

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The Dare Game

I’m not able to go swimming as often as I could. The commute eats the time away that I would otherwise have spent in the water. It makes the times in the week that I can go more precious, and … Continue reading

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Blue Mist

I am foul. I woke up, early this afternoon, in a nightmarish haze, feeling absolutely shattered. It’s a cheerful enough day. But I am foul, foul, FOUL. The word rings through me. Collected some more names this week, that being one … Continue reading

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