Tag Archives: anxiety

Never enough

My brother was quite a precocious child. At his birth, he gave me a nurse’s dressing up outfit. As you can see below, I was a very dutiful nurse. I tended each of my patients with care, a song (‘Miss … Continue reading

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Eye of the Storm

All the time I have been writing this blog, I have been on anti-depressants. (Although I should note that there was a period a few years ago, when I was with my ex-partner, and I tried to taper them. I … Continue reading

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This week  marks the halfway point of my time in the Therapeutic Community. Over the first three months, I made tangible changes; moved house, reduced working hours, withdrew myself from my parents’ “let’s divorce each other as inhumanely as possible” … Continue reading

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Extreme data: Research at the cutting edge

Work is hard. Thinking is hard because my mind doesn’t stay where I put it. I get sidetracked in anger at the stigma carried in the way psychologists write and talk about mental health. Title: Borderline mothers. Mothers at the periphery of two … Continue reading

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Fear and trembling

The anxiety persists. Following group, anothey person storming out, conflict, staff inaction, I descend into sleepless nights. I’m not allowed to take z-meds, because if I take them, I risk forfeiting being deemed “ready” for therapeutic community. To be accepted there, … Continue reading

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Borrowed Time

Tim has been moving in strange ways of late. And not moving. And now it is over two weeks since I last wrote a post, and I’m not sure of how that much time has managed to elapse. It stops … Continue reading

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Out of My Mind

It is a truth universally acknowledged, that whenever one area of your life starts to go well, another will fall spectacularly apart. The Edge of Reason, Helen Fielding I am stunned. Stopped in my tracks and unsure of myself. As … Continue reading

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