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Playing pretend

I have spent large swathes of the past week in tears. Starting with tears of exhaustion following another stupidly early morning, and failed job interview. Tears on the bus that managed to perturb the five year-old child sat in front … Continue reading

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F is for Fail

I can’t do this. Clearly. I’ve failed again this week to secure employment. The reason given for why – because I haven’t done enough publishing. But that’s because I have sent my writing to the interviewer and badgered and badgered … Continue reading

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Integral to existence

I should not exist. I think I may have said this before. Forgive me. I think about it often. I should not exist because had my older brother been born full-term, my conception would have been impossible. Or – I … Continue reading

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Flux

Board games are good. And there are lots of them in this house. Although I have yet to discover what Fluxx is about. Flux is a good word for the past week. Everything was in transition; my housemate, his bail, … Continue reading

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Fear and trembling

The anxiety persists. Following group, anothey person storming out, conflict, staff inaction, I descend into sleepless nights. I’m not allowed to take z-meds, because if I take them, I risk forfeiting being deemed “ready” for therapeutic community. To be accepted there, … Continue reading

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Hurdling

“I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.” Sylvia Plath The Bell Jar I hold back the tears. Again, and again and again. I feel their surge and … Continue reading

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