Tag Archives: sadness

Rooting Compassion

When I was little, but big enough to know that owning a pony of my own was out of the question, I was promised a pet when we got a bigger place. The house was on the market, in the … Continue reading

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Inside out

The first time I went away from home, I was eleven. Eleven years-old is far too old to go away overnight for the first time. I wasn’t just going away overnight. I was going away for four nights, over a … Continue reading

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Toeing the line

In other words, putting one foot in front of the other, feet flat, along  a taut skipping rope, or a line in the pavement (I ain’t afraid of no bears). Me, aged seven or eight years, developing balance –  poise – … Continue reading

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Time for Grace

If and when a horror turns up you will then be given Grace to help you. I don’t think one is usually given it in advance. “Give us our daily bread” (not an annuity for life) applies to spiritual gifts … Continue reading

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Frenzied Chasm

Rewind 15 years. I am 18, and about to sit my final school exams. Each weekday morning, I wake at 5am. I am working late, and not sleeping well. I have panic attacks in anticipation of the post arriving; university … Continue reading

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Changeless

It is barely lunchtime, and I am pathetically tired. It’s not because I didn’t sleep last night – I nearly managed eight hours’.  I would have done, had it not taken me so long to fall asleep. I got up … Continue reading

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Shipwreck in a Bottle

I come back into the room. I am staring  determinedly through the floor, and my voice is shaking. I am trembling. I speak to explain that sharing emotion is dangerous and unwanted and makes people threaten to leave, before they turn … Continue reading

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