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Small Reflection

The time will come when, with elation you will greet yourself arriving at your own door, in your own mirror and each will smile at the other’s welcome… Love after Love by Derek Walcott [continued at link] God has a … Continue reading

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Square One

Spin the clock back a few years. I am spending a morning in Fenwick’s (erstwhile, delightful department store in West London) with my mother. We go to their cafe. I have orange juice. I want orange juice in a carton. … Continue reading

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Toeing the line

In other words, putting one foot in front of the other, feet flat, along  a taut skipping rope, or a line in the pavement (I ain’t afraid of no bears). Me, aged seven or eight years, developing balance –  poise – … Continue reading

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Schrodinger’s Root

My mother visited my primary school classroom umpteen times about the bullying. Each evening, I would give her an account of events. They became expected; normalized. It was the way that other children behaved around me. My mother visiting the … Continue reading

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Remember my name

“I’m Kurt, I’m 11, and I’m incorrigible. … What’s incorrigible? I am one of those folks who can recite the lines of their favourite films, not for the trying, but for the number of times that I have watched them.  … Continue reading

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Just as I am

Thirteen years ago today, I was baptised. As the minister preached of times of loneliness to come, alongside the joys, I was sinking into my first fully fledged episode of depression. Having a relationship with a personal God had meant … Continue reading

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Order of the Phoenix

Therapy is hard. Most of the past week has been spent entombed in grey and fogginess and gloom. Aside from one day, when I had to be at work out of necessity, for teaching, I remained in bed for as … Continue reading

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