Category Archives: plans

Order of the Phoenix

Therapy is hard. Most of the past week has been spent entombed in grey and fogginess and gloom. Aside from one day, when I had to be at work out of necessity, for teaching, I remained in bed for as … Continue reading

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Sign and Promise

CW: #suicideideation New years are times I find scary. As we, as a house, lit sky lanterns and let them go into the skies, to see in the new year, I was trembling. With cold, for sure, but also fear. … Continue reading

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Illusions of Perspective

I am clinging to academia by the case of a very jaded laptop battery. A laptop that moves from institution to institution, coffee shop to coffee shop, awaiting students and marking and upfront teaching, whilst trying to ignore the pile … Continue reading

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In reverse

I feel like I am slipping backwards. The dejà vu of last week culminated yesterday with, ‘it wouldn’t faze me if you said you were getting married in six weeks; I’d be delighted for you’. My mother knows I have … Continue reading

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Reeling

I had just settled in the knowledge that my ex-housemate is in prison. In prison, for a crime that, this time last year, as we adopted a cat, I could not have imagined him committing. Courts and police raids and … Continue reading

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Garden of Trust

  You’d think that after 5 years, leaving Taizé would get easier. It doesn’t. It gets harder. The notes of a friend who, like me, journeyed to Taizé for the fifth time this year, returning to the UK a week … Continue reading

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Laying down and lying down

A shorter and earlier post this week. One to note that I am heading for Taizé, so won’t post again for a while. To stop, and reflect on what I am taking with me, what I want to leave behind, … Continue reading

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