Category Archives: plans

Flux

Board games are good. And there are lots of them in this house. Although I have yet to discover what Fluxx is about. Flux is a good word for the past week. Everything was in transition; my housemate, his bail, … Continue reading

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Mingled fears

I’m sorting things out. I’m going through files and books, not simply book-by-book or file-by-file, but leaf-by-leaf. I can’t take it all with me. And some of it, I wouldn’t even want to take with me. School GCSE and A … Continue reading

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Fear and trembling

The anxiety persists. Following group, anothey person storming out, conflict, staff inaction, I descend into sleepless nights. I’m not allowed to take z-meds, because if I take them, I risk forfeiting being deemed “ready” for therapeutic community. To be accepted there, … Continue reading

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Hurdling

“I could feel the tears brimming and sloshing in me like water in a glass that is unsteady and too full.” Sylvia Plath The Bell Jar I hold back the tears. Again, and again and again. I feel their surge and … Continue reading

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Jigsaw

I am not sure what is happening anymore. It feels like there is a perpetual fog clouding  my vision, obscuring what is behind, as well as what is ahead.  I know that Christmas has come and gone; that this year … Continue reading

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Second Opinion

I have just gotten back from the hospital. Six years after it was first suggested, off-label, and with a number of potentially incapacitating side effects (not for me then), I have had a series of botulinum toxin injections, to paralyse … Continue reading

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Borrowed Time

Tim has been moving in strange ways of late. And not moving. And now it is over two weeks since I last wrote a post, and I’m not sure of how that much time has managed to elapse. It stops … Continue reading

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